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Everything Except Expect.

Why am I unsure, and why am I unhappy? I believe it's because of expectations. Expectations from me, of what I could be doing instead.  Expectations of mine, of how perfect everything has to be for it to matter.  Expectations of others - on how my life should be instead, and expectations from others.  Honestly though, at the end of the day, the question I find myself asking a lot is, “What did I expect?” as though I didn't know perfectly well what I wanted. I still ask myself that question because I know what the real answer is. I expect the world to run on my clock. I expect the conversation to be what I had rehearsed, and the conclusion to be the one I prepared for.  I was expecting my job to be difficult, and my growth easy.  I expect a lot, but it's always completely different.  Until I realised, that is what computer programs do, and well, I'm not one.  I'm human. I'm wrong a lot, and I'm thankful for that. It means I'm neither a manmade code nor a